Havent found a way for me to express out my thoughts and feelings,

so yeah back to blogger today.

K basically life sucks now.

Never been really happy these two weeks.

And daily routine is just waking up, school, eat and sleep.

So sick of it, left out somethingg.

Im drowned in my emotional thoughts.

Why at the first place i have to think things in sucha way and make everything complicated.

Why things turn out this way.

Why i dont have the guts to make any actions.

Why am i so sentimental.

Why didn't i cherished and appreciate things around me.

Why i only regret now.

Why did i took things for granted.

So many whys and what ifs in my head.

My heart skipped a beat today. And im absoutely sure that its still you.

Feeling so messed up and all i wanna do is to get out of school asap.

Rushed out and get home.

But the bus rides, the familiar places..

Sometimes i think im strong enough to overcome things,

cus i'd been thru similar situation.

But have to admit that im a coward this time round.

I'd been having almost the same dream everynight.

And it's really every night ok.

You.

Me.

Happy.

Yes, seems so real.

Could feel your touch and hear your voice so clearly.

But when i woke up and realized everything was a dream, what can i do?

Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.

Sit on bed, look around and see images of us.

Then think again why didnt i appreciate,.

Those little things and time in the past meant so much now.

As i lie on my bed in my silent room with only the clock sound,

i feel like time passed so fast.

But now im wasting every seconds.

I didn't do anything to fight for what i want.

But actually i wanted do, i just run out of ideas how to.

Where'd my courage gone to.

Had first h2h talk with mom that day.

I told her that this is the first time im so so serious,

and that i will never think of giving up.

True indeed, i dont needa compare with any other previous relationships to know.

I myself understand that i'd never felt this way before.

Before being together with you,

i'd never really felt happiness.

i'd never really grown up.

i'd never really know how to think and cherish.

i'd never known that other than my parents,

there's still someone out there who can love me so much.

But things just changed.

Dont wanna stay this way anymore.

I have not much expectations.

I only wanna be happy with you.

I want extended hols eh :(

Back from Pahang!!! Totally an awesome trip!! ^-^
Love the jeep the most! Came back with bruises like i got abused LOLOL but worth it ;)
Miss everything there now!!!!! Wonderful 3 days 2 nights hehehe.

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Went to Changi with cheahenting today!! Our first celebration hehehhez ;))
Camwhored everywhere!!! A lot more other photos on fb!

Had a fun day with shiyrong yesterday!! ♥
She's coming over my house now hehehe bye.

First time in my life i'd seen this in my report card.
But you ain't happy for me.
Instead you throw me all those fucking hurtful words.

Till now its still lingering in my head.
Half of it makes me wanna do better,
and half of it just crashed away my hopes.

I don't hate you, and i never will.
But i want you to see how much your words affect me.

I'm gonna show it to you.

Dump away your unhappiness and forgets it at the end of the day.
There's no point carrying it forward to a brand new day.

Few more days of school! ^-^
Geography trip next week!!
I'll be with thamyuting i think. Hope we won't get separated!
Ohyeah, wo ai ta hen duo!! :)

Exams over doesn't mean happy time yet. So tired facing all those sucky results. Most of it was as expected, but i was so disappointed with my maths results. Very.
So extremely happy when teacher announced my name for the top, my heart almost jumped out. But then yet the marks, just sucks la. So fucking disappointed back then. Or even now when i think of it. Feel like killing myself seriously. There goes my distinction, FLY. And the rest of subjects.. Aiya basically ALL SUCKS.

But this is not the end yet okay. I'm not giving up of course :) Still gotta make my parents proud, work for my future, and prove to some people who look down on us. I still have one semester to work hard. Just wait you see, motherfucker.

2 more weeks of school left! I hope my report book, uh uh dont want bad remarks ley :(
But HEAVEN YEAH haha, hols!!!



Nice not the sky! Hahahaha, i captured this on friday after school. Like this kind of weather ^-^
K la kind of remind me of some memories. Yeah. Mizzzz140309carnival!!

I dont know why sometimes i tend to think so much and then make myself suffer. And this weekend was so horrible for me. Hell k. Think think think. Sucks la. Moodswings.
K bye.

EXAMMMMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRR! :D

A simple surprise can be full of sincerity.
Happy mothers dayyyyy to my beloved mommy! ♥

Mathssss, last war on tuesday!
Give up on revision for today. Weather so mf hot. Burning and melting at home -_-

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Things changed before you could realise it.

"A real friend is the one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

One more paper to go and it's end of MYE already!!!!
No more waking up @ 4.30am to study ^-^
Then in few weeks time, here comes the one month of fun! ;)

And also, mothers day is around the corner.
My gift is prepared, and surprised is planned.
So yeah, just wish everything works!


Anywayyy, i love tumblr muchhie ♥


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Youyouyou :)

Hiii. I'm into tumblr recentlyyy ^-^
Follow me kkkkz @pinkylovepromise.tumblr.com!

Gotten the above pictures from tumblr!
MICKEYYYYYY!
K i think i started getting obsessed with mickey last year.
When i had that as first month present hehe :)
So cute so cute so cute so cute!!!!!
Ok i seriously love mickeyyy hahaha. <3